post vacation - Port Dickson

love you,
mommy and daddy

post vacation - Cherating

Dear son,

I want to upload pix where recently on 15th n 16th May, 2010 our family together with Mummy's family went for a holiday at Cherating, Kuantan.

Nway, its just yesterday we came back from Terengganu for a holiday too with Daddy's family but later will update.

enjoy the photos..

Jalan-Jalan

Dear Umar,

I just wanna u to noe dat up till today, u being 4 months old has traveled around Malaysia for holidays....i'm proud of your behaviour & i noe dat u r a good boy when jalan2...

No surprise becoz mummy & daddy mmg suke berjalan even when u r sarat in mummy's tummy ;p....

Insyallah ada rezeki & when u r lil' bit older, we'll go mkn angin overseas lakz ok?

But,

U have to promise to be a good boy & listen to mummy & daddy....

*nnti mummy & daddy upload gmbr2 kita jln2...

Luv ya

Note from Daddy

Dearest Umar,

I know ur mummy have been telling me to update or write something on this blog for this past week, but i have been quiet busy and even though the pc's monitor always stares at me but i still have no time to write anything.....

Anywayz....

When i'm writing this i just come back from Kuala Selangor Land Office (when u are older i'll show u d places that i have to go to feed u) and it is the eve of Wesak Day (cuti friday...long weekend) whereby tomorrow we are goin' for another holidae to Kuala Terengganu( ....yay!!) i've decided to share with u my experience when u wanted to come out from ur mummy's tummy (way ahead of time...huhu).

Friday nite futsal.....

As usual, friday nite is d nite where daddy n frens would go & play futsal at Spors Barn and i'll be home at around 3-4 am (depends samada lepak lama or not ;p....sori mummy). By d time i got home mummy complained that she felt liquid running down her legs....Me being no experience bout this stuf..(derrr, mana gua nak tau...anak pertama la pulok...) just told mummy dat we'll go to the hospital in the murnin' to figure out what's goin on.....

7 a.m......

With just a few hours of sleep, daddy wakes up n have to send Cik Daud and his daughter (u'll later noe who is cik Daud and Mak Ina) to putrajaya becoz they do not knoe the way. On our way to putrajaya, it crosses my mid that u wanted to go out see d world but brush it off coz according to the calculation it would be end of February & not today......when we arrive at Putrajaya, i call mumy but she would not talk to me (i guess she was havin' d contraction at dat time), so i talked to Mak Tok n she asked me to hurry up back home n take mummy to d hospital....again, that thought of u fighting to see d world crossed my mind...this time i started to plan in my head what we have to do if it d time....suddenly daddy terfikir...."Aduhh....beg for mummy & u pon x siap lagi" huhuhu...a thousand things runs in mind n i keep praying i my heart dat everything would run smoothly and mummy and u would be safe in Allah's hands......

"Don't talk to me...shut up!"

I think by d time i ask mummy d question "r u ok?" mummy can't control her emotion no more...hehehe...i understand mummy, it's ok...mummy would say "Don't talk to me...shut up!" hehehe.....so i pack a few things into d beg and talk to Mak Tok...Mak tok told me dat this is maybe just false alarm....but deep in my heart i noe dat this is day day u want wanted to come out from ur mumy's tummy and meet the world.....

Car, 5th Floor, Wheelchair...

We drove to UMSC to see Dr. Silay and mummy keep grinning and i felt so helpless seeing mummy dat way and all i can say was "sabar b, nak sampai dah""sabar yang" hehehe...i didn't noe what to say or do but still stay calm and trying to imagine whats the next few hours would be....so, mummy already told about what's goin with the hospital and stuff...so i'll skip dat part out coz basicaly, i didn't noe what to say or do anymore but just drove as fast as i can to the labour room...dats where mummy can only sit on the wheelchair and keep holding mummy's hand and kept telling her dat everything is goin to be alrite....

Labour room and 4hours...

I wanted to witness ur birth my son, but the stoopid UMMC's rule of not allowing fathers inside the labour room has prevented me to do so....so, there i was, waiting outside with few others goin-to-be fathers, waiting eagerly sitting at the waiting hall....as usual, daddy would not just sit and stare at the wall like an idiot, so daddy started a conversation with one of the guy waiting for his wife..."dah lama ke masuk?"..."Sejak kul 7, dah buka 10cm tapi xdapepe berita pun" waaahhhhhhhh..........4 hours waiting there with no news whether his baby has safely delivered or not.....my prayers for u & mummy is d only thing that was goin on in my mind....

D last one to come in, d first one to come

By 11 am, bout half an hour after mummy went into the labour room, a nurse came out and called mummy's name..."U husband nuraini?" "yes", " anak awak dah selamat deliver, baby dan emak selamat, kami dah tau apa jantina tapi nnti u tgk sendiri la"....alhamdulilah.....congrats from d guy waiting from 7am and i can see worriedness from his face "insyallah selamat tu" daddy said to him....phone calls, msgs and FB update......to tell dat my little warrior has survived and ready to take world by storm....mummy and u was d last one to come in but the first one to come out....

No words....

D first look dat u gave me, make me shed tears in my eyes....as i was performing azan to u, u kept quiet, look peacefully, calm and relaxing......as i azan to your ear, i hold my tears and kiss your forehead when i'm done....No words can describe what i felt at dat time....

There we were, two Allah's creations, in dat small room inside the labour room and not a sound from both of us......Alhamdulillah.....

Welcome to world my son.....

My Dream Strollers

Son,

It is not easy to choose the right strollers for u.
Mommy have own-dream-stroller where I can stylishly push you wherever we have outings.

My first ever dream stroller is Quinny.



Nice rrrriightt?

*this stroller can be used when baby is 9 months n above but in order to carry infant, you can buy the maxi cosi carrier cum car seat and attach with the frame* ~how cool is that??? plus Quinny is the lightest stroller ever =)

Ok. decided. am going to buy this stroller for you.

but then.

this baby carrier can only b used up to xxkgs only...

and

we changed our mind. instead of buying Quinny stroller n Maxi Cosi baby carrier cum car seat *which can only b used up to 1 year* we change to Maclaren.

we decided to buy you model techno xt which can be used from newborn *can recline to flat position* and for your car seat, we bought that can be used from infants n up to 4 years. I think this is a smart buy.



unfortunately

after we search for this model BUT black color *there is not in market* =(

sad huh?

finally, we decided to buy you Quest model



strongest reason for choosing this model;
1) light *easy to carry and travel*
2) can recline to sleeping baby position

they said,"beli stroller mahal-mahal sekali dia tak nak naik"

we'll see son, but if you do....

hurmmmmm

twinkle twinkle

good night son

Day One

are you okay son?

Umar,

Mummy guess you are not okay. something wrong with your tummy or my breast milk or the formula milk? I really don't know..

Since last Saturday I remember, you poop too frequent. The frequency is like, just after I changed your diapers, and you poop again. understand? but you doesn't seems like you are in pain or not feeling well because you act like normal. you smile, you still talk, you still play *its just normal*

But this morning, when your daddy is on his way to send you to nursery, he called me
"Mummy, Umar ni kenapa? Dia nangis tak berhenti" by the time he called me, I am already at UM but i make my turn to see what had happened.


Tears in your eyes make me feel so guilty.

Once reach nursery i told the caretaker what I'm worried about especially about your poop. They said, its sometimes normal among babies. May be you are about to learn or get something new for yourself like maybe your are very soon can roll over or push up your butt or anything as long as it is not in your currently routine.

The explanations calm me a bit..

Your caretaker (Mak Ani) took you from my lappy and try to feed you and calm you down but I finally managed to get you sleep.



Son, you are going to do something new outside your routine. What about talking? Naahhh.. still too early =)

Love you so much,
mummy

When mummy decided to write about your delivery

Dear son,

It was so wonderful to have u in my womb for the past 36 weeks but on 23rd Jan 2010 at 11am, u were born in this challenging world without giving us an early notice ....

it was a hectic Saturday morning where your aunties n uncle from Johor Bahru came for a stay and daddy had to send them to Putrajaya @ 7am, Ayah Tok had a class @9am, your Aunty Lynn had an extra class and only Mak Tok was available but what about the guests at home?

the historical moment between me and you begins when that wonderful night, Daddy went out for futsal *as usual* with some friends at 12am.. I couldn't sleep and felt so uncomfortable that night... i was carrying a bundle of love and it was not easy... it was joy for every face i knew..

i bore the uneasy and uncomfortable feelings in my sleep for almost every day..... Daddy helped me a lot by massaging me before I sleep but with you in my womb, i have to be strong. i have to let the fear fade as seeing you grow bigger and bigger every day makes me proud... i love you even more!!

i fell asleep early but woke up every hour *due to pregnancy syndrome and toilet frequency*
but that historical night, I woke up at 3am to go to the toilet but this time, its different..

i rushed for toilet. after i washed clean somehow there was some liquid flow through my leg. i thought it must be vaginal discharge *terms use in pregnancy* so i washed again. but when I wore my pants, the liquid was still coming out and I decided to wear an absorbent pad and after changing it within half an hour and the liquid stop running and luckily Daddy was already home. I explained everything to Daddy and he said 'Esok pagi kita pergi check doktor' and I said 'Okay' and we went back to bed...

i couldn't sleep..

so, i read a book about pregnancy by Dr. Miriam bought by your daddy and it was written there that it might be a false alarm and to be ready within 2 weeks time, you might be delivering your baby.

at 4am, i felt a soft contraction and it comes and goes for every 10 minutes *honestly i don't know how contraction feels like ~this 'contraction' is indescribable

'is this what Dr. Miriam said as a false alarm?' and 'is this what i will bare for another 2 weeks?' i'm panicking but I'm trying to control it as what i learned during antenatal class at UMMC 2 weeks before. listening to your Daddy's music.. i know he's tired so i decided to wait and see *while i bare the pain* it comes and goes, the soft contraction...

this time onwards, Mummy totally cannot sleep. i stand, sit, bend, lay down but the pain doesn't relieve..

this pain makes me feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo not easy n uncomfortable!!!!!!!!!
at 6am, mummy decided to take a shower. a very-long-hot shower. i shampooed my hair pretending like the pain is not there.

now it came at every 5 minutes son..

at 6.45am daddy woke up and prepared himself to send uncle to Putrajaya. i said 'Yang, cakap kat Mak I tak sihat la.. i nak duduk kat bilik je' he asked me whether I'm okay or not and surely mummy said 'i'm okay' but the pain............ arrghhhhhhhhhh........

daddy didn't know that. i just said 'i rasa sakit perut' "contraction ke" 'how the hell do i know what contraction is like hubs? this is my first time' and after he went out, tears is all over my face.

i was crying in silent, tears is everywhere...

its painful son.

i cannot stand this but what can I do??

i don't know what else to do except pressing my face on the pillow and crying and hold my tummy and cry and stand and cry and sit and lay down and..........

Dear GOD, tolonglah hambamu ini dan permudahkanlah segalanya.. amiin...

after few minutes, Mak Tok came to check on me but by the time she came in, Mummy was crying... i guess she panicked too and asked me

'Ain, are you okay?' i just nodded and 'You okay tak ni?' i nodded unsurely.. 'Ain rasa sakit perut' n 'contraction ke?' *by the time Mummy wrote this, I burst into a big laugh *because I don't know how contraction feels like!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Mak Tok said 'Ni awal sangat lagi ni.. you nak gi doctor?' i said yes. but Mak Tok managed to call Dr Silay *who was supposed to be my gynea at UMSC* and after the conversation with Dr, Mak Tok pack some stuff for me and wait for your daddy..

*Mummy feels that my respond to everyone is like i'm-not-in-pain-and-i-can-wait-for-another-1ohours-like-this-without-telling-everyone-but-i-actually-cannot-stand-the-pain*

i just don't want everyone to panic at the situation. so i try to calm n relax...

around 8.30am, i REALLY felt like excreting i went to toilet for 2-3 times but nope.. nothing happen when i lastly said to an Aunt 'I really felt like excreting but it didn't come out' n i smiles..

'tu bukan nak buang air.. tu dah nak bersalin' OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by that time mummy dah rasa panic. where is your daddy???

at almost 9am daddy reached home and we sped to UMSC.

*in the car I was like ... it's really painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

once we reached UMSC, Dr. Silay checked and said

she already 5cm dilated. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

son, is this the time for you to meet your mummy and daddy??

Dr. Silay said we have a problem here where all rooms at UMSC is occupied.

what????????????? where am i going to deliver my baby??

after few calls made by Dr, mummy was sent to UMMC and straight to labour room

in labour room, a doctor came and checked me and said 'you dah boleh push' a few nurses and midwife taught me on how to push and breath and push and oh no!!!!!!!!!! the contraction is coming!!!!!!!!!!

they said "PUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!

i tried to push but nothing happened. PUSH!!!!!!!!.. fuhhh.. i really don't know how and i don't have enough breath to give one big push.

when the contraction come. 'ok Nuraini' PUSHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt that my life was at risk but I chose to deliver you to this world. Nothing else mattered at the time but bringing you to the world that God has created beautifully.

it is funny when you almost came out, i was very tired and relaxed. but then you changed your mind and went back in. it happened 2 times. "Nuraini, tak elok lama sangat camni, kita takut baby lemas"

when i heard lemas mummy terus decide its about life, its your life the doctor was talking about and i gathered all my strength to give one-big-push and that's it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


hot and slippery thing came out from down there and i saw you and you cried!!!!!!!!!!!

i stood the pain from 3am and at 11am, you finally came out son.. it's you that i really wanted to see....

'Dr placed you on top of me *with all the blood* and you were still crying and alhamdulillah..

May you one day, when you can read and understand this feeling, always remember me and this most historical event that had ever happened to your mummy, who feeds you with her breast milk as your first food and loves you and able to do anything for you son.




Be a good son, good caliph and loves your parents as we are still alive because rising you up is everything to mummy and daddy.






I love so much,
Mummy

To Umar

Dear son,

Today mummy n daddy decided to document everything about u when u r yesterday turned into 4 months old.

loves u so much,
mummy and daddy